Alone in a crowded room

Have you ever felt that no one really knew who you were and even if they did they did not care?
Have you ever been in a room full of people and felt utterly alone?
Have you ever wanted to climb into a hole and disappear or become a fly on the wall, present but not?
Have you ever been holding hands with a person you loved and suddenly realized that they were a stranger?
Have you ever been speaking to a group and started feeling like you were having an out of body experience, watching or hearing yourself but being disconnected from the person speaking?
Have you ever been driving down the road and realized that you have been been doing so unconsciously?

No, Well I have and it is not a feeling of being in control.

There were been times in the past that anxiety was so prevalent, in my life, that it ruled my every moment because I did not know when it might show-up and take control. It was always lying in wait just below the surface.




Ending: I was never treated as an anxious or depressed patient but have been on medication for symptoms at times for short periods.